3-6-5-0 Three-six-five-zero Three thousand, six hundred and fifty Thirty-six fifty The number, when applied in context, has varied weight in its meaning.  Now if we are talking about 3,650 pennies, from a monetary standpoint, it is not a lot but, if you must carry said pennies around all day that is lot.  Paying 36.50% tax… Continue reading 3650

I recently saw a posting of a park bench with one person sitting on it. The caption read “if you could talk to your loved one for an hour what would you say?”  It took me a moment to think because what I had to say would not fill an hour. I would say two things… Continue reading Dinner Party

Did you know – the walls of Jericho were as high as 46 feet tall from sea level and as thick as 7 feet? Think about that, the wall was 4 stories tall (an elevator would be good) and the thickness would be equivalent to two 8 year olds laying head to toe. Now, I… Continue reading Foundation

In my mind’s eye I am sitting in a room. The wall are painted white, there are big windows and a skylight that takes up a third of the ceiling. The place has so much light coming in and it feels fresh and airy. I am sitting in front of a canvas on an easel.… Continue reading Color

In chaos theory the butterfly effect is one act having catastrophic ramifications on the end result. I have simplified this to the point I am sure some mathematician when reading this will curl up and rock and forth for self soothing. To think how one decision/act can change the course of a day, year, life,… Continue reading The Butterfly Effect

The before Aundrea, the chick with all the amazing super abilities could look at vulnerable and weakness wrap them in a tight ball and laugh at them. The amazing Badass Aundrea had the ability to take a plate of issues and problems and grow the plate so it wasn’t an insurmountable burden. As she vanquished… Continue reading Superpowers

Time The saying goes you can be sure of three things in life: death, taxes, and change. Whoever we are to give credit to this saying hit the nail on the head. I used to think of my life as BC and AC. BC, before Courtney, was my coming of age time. Hanging out with… Continue reading Time

Today at church the pastor spoke about the difference between being happy and having joy. The definition he gave of happiness is it is something that is fleeting whereas joy is a constant. Happiness is payment whereas joy is the dividend. I feel that the joy in my life was extinguished on April 18, 2012.… Continue reading Happy vs Joy

If last week had a theme it was music. It started with a good friend sending me a video of Simon and Garfunkel’s “Like A Bridge Over Troubled Water” because when she heard it she thought of me. After playing it multiple times I made sure to tell her that during this grieving process she… Continue reading Music